27.9.08

Sweet Hiatus

I will not be able to update this lovely blog for awhile..
I shall write more when I return, I just don't have time.. :/

I had to really work to have the time before, and now it's
just impossible.



<3

I will write when I return.

25.9.08

Harmonious Humility

Sept. 25th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



2 kiwis


1000 ml.-
cucumber juice
1/2 head octopus lettuce
2 big handfuls mache' blend
1 tsp. Green Vibrance
2 tsp. Giacomo Greens
key lime juice
frozen blueberries
1 banana



2 Red bartlett pears
(one of my favorite fruits ;P)



300 ml. -
cucumber juice



900 ml. -
Herbal fruit tonic/filtered water
1/2 head octopus lettuce
1/2 head romaine lettuce
2 tsp. Vitamineral Greens
frozen raspberries/blackberries
1/2 banana

24.9.08

The Arch of Society

Sept. 24th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)





1 big handful green grapes
2 mangoes
1 peach
1 banana
1 bag of red grapes





300 ml. -
Genesis juice Herbal fruit tonic.(raw, local)



1 bowl Spicy Salsa, w/ diced lemon cucumbers
(minus the garlic) ;)


2 bowls salsa, with spiced pumpkins seeds
2 handfuls pumpkins seeds





2-3 liters water



~~~


I've been eating the mangoes @ around 3am, lately..
Not good, I need to get back to a regular eating schedule..

Not to mention my ridiculous (none)sleeping schedule.
(Chi out of balance perhaps...
topped with abundant fruit consumption ;D)


.



I'll be attending yoga class with Kris and Kristy
in Denver, CO. in less than two weeks. :)
I am excited to meet all of their wonderful friends,
and explore the Denver cityscapes that I have dreamt of,
but haven't spent significant time in, in years.



A few decisions I have shifted upon this morning:

- I think I am going to start making YouTube videos.
(I believe this world needs more impressive rawfoodists
out there.. I'm finally to a point, where I have experimented
enough, done enough research, and lived this lifestyle
long enough... that I want to start really just beaming out
my inner wisdom)


- I'll be writing up some entries soon.. about traveling
and eating raw, as well as grocery shopping suggestions
and tips.


-



My subtle rant:


Why is David Wolfe comparing a whales bodily
functions to a humans when it comes to child nutrition??

I watch all of these videos of... less than impressive raw foodists,
some of their stories are really amazing.


But, some of the things these people say.. especially
especially when they are trying to sell you a product.
Can be dangerous.



Even in this beautiful movement, there are Wolfe's.
Do not trust everything they tell you... experiment
for yourself, see how your body reacts;
we are ALL divinely different beings.
What works for me, might not work for you.


~

I am spending my morning watching videos
on child birth and child nutrition.

The lovely Storm and Jinjee have been raising
their entire family of 6 children, all raw vegan.
Please visit:
www.thegardendiet.com

To dream in, Sapote:

Sept. 23rd consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)




3 mangoes


~1000 ml.-
cucumber juice
5 leaves dino kale
1/2 bunch spinach
1 tsp. bee pollen
2 heaping tsp. Vitamineral Greens
1 tsp. Giacomo Greens
key lime juice
frozen blueberries
1 banana



~ 3 handfuls green & red grapes


2 bowls of pinneapple/tomato salsa topped with chopped cilantro
and tamari spiced pumpkin seeds.



2-3 liters water


~~~





I bought a mamey SAPOTE today!
I am excited to finally try it...






~~~


"Imagination is the beginning of creation.
You imagine what you desire, you will what you imagine,
and at last you create what you will."
~George Bernard Shaw








23.9.08

Personal Truth ]

A brief synopsis of My Dietary History;



- I was raised vegetarian


- I first became interested in veganism when
I was researching a lot of philosophy at ages 9 & 10.
Primarily, Franz Kafka played an important role in my transition.



- I decided to go vegan for health reasons around ages 10/11
upon the death of my Grandmother (aka. my second mother);
She died of the chemotherapy that was being used to treat
her ovarian cancer; which she struggled with for years...
she lost two battles.
I made the decision to break the cycle.
This is when I became fueled with passion &
conviction for this way of life.



- I started researching and purchasing
almost solely organic products when I was 14.
This is when I discovered natural food stores
(though in the mid-west, they were very small at the time).
I started predominantly shopping at these stores,
no matter the drive; even when I first got my license...
I drove a good 20-40 minutes; just to shop at Good Earth.



- Even though I purchased solely organic..
I was experiencing crippling depression, and went thru
the rounds at medical offices; clinics, and psych wards.
To sum up the novel that is this time in my life, I was very sick.
I also did a lot of dietary experimentation at this time,
experimenting with Macrobiotics, wheat-free, etc.

But I remained sick...
Both mentally, and emotionally.

And to top it off...I was poisoning myself with medication.
I was treating the symptoms.



- My uncle dies from a drug overdose(suicide);
He had been suffering with mental problems and lifes turmoil
as long as I had known him, it appeared imminent.
He was diagnosed bi-polar.
His overdose was on lithium, one of the medications
I was on at the time.



- After starting to improve my diet... and experiencing
years of disordered eating habits, poor body image,
low self-esteem.. etc. I knew everything I needed to do
to heal... but at this time, I saw no light.
Only darkness.



- My aunt commits suicide, via drug overdose.
She was also diagnosed bi-polar, and had been struggling
with depression, along with many other emotional problems
for ... as long as I had known her.
After her suicide... is when I got into raw foods, I was 17.



- I'm 18, living in California; and end up seeing a story about
Supermodel Carol Alt healing herself with raw foods;
she talks about how amazing she feels; and that she
hadn't been sick in almost 8 years.
This is when I make the decision to change my life.

www.carolalt.com
http://www.carolalt.com/category/carol-blog/
www.rawnutrition.com


And, aside from one 'healing crisis', topped with a fever
(which I took nothing for); I have not been sick since!
I have not been sick in well over 6 years now.




- Transitioning to raw foods was definitely a task...
it took a lot of adjusting, my first 2 years were predominantly
75%+ raw...
I took a transitional approach, because I feel it is best for the body.



- I remain 95-100% raw, at all times; and have been for
several years now. I still experience no illness, what so ever.



I have no doubt in my mind, that I will remain raw
for the rest of my life.
I couldn't imagine living any other way.




:)

22.9.08

Day 53/cleanse break

Sept. 21st consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



I ended up breaking my cleanse @ 3am
on my 53rd day, with 2 peaches and 1 banana.
:D


It's amazing how potent "eating" actually is.
I think it's something a lot of people take for granted...
the medicinal qualities of food.


I wasn't able to video tape anything because my
cameras are full right now... :/
But I feel this cleansing was more or less just
a "prep cleanse" for the full 92 days juice this December
I'd like to do.


We'll see what transpire with running training and the like
until then though. Also, I am going to continue documenting
my food intake, I like it. :)



<3

_______________________________________


1 small bag of red grapes

2 Bowls of diced cucumbers & pico de gallo/salsa with tumeric,
pumpkin seeds & sprouts. :)


2-3 liters water [for an amazing bottled water company, check out: www.pentawater.com ; non-corporately owned company with integrity]




_______________________________________




~~~






"Faced with what is right, to leave it undone shows a lack of courage.
"


"Go before the people with your example, and be laborious in their affairs."
~Confucius

~~~


transcendence

noun
1. a state of being or existence above and beyond the limits of material experience
2. the state of excelling or surpassing or going beyond usual limits











Day 52:

Sept. 20th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



300 ml. -
filtered water/peach


@ Blossoming Lotus

500 ml. -
Thai Mango Bell Pepper live soup


500 ml. -
cucumber/kale juice



~~~



Thoughts:




"If you think in terms of a year, plant a seed;
if in terms of ten years, plant trees;
if in terms of 100 years, teach the people.
" ~Confucius



20.9.08

Day 51:

Sept. 19th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



Water with fresh lemon


300 ml.-
filtered water/red grapes


500 ml.-
Pineapple salsa! hah
(like regular blended fresh salsa, only with pineapple)


500 ml.-
Italian-like salsa blended with raw pumpkin seeds.
(also added Apple Cider Vinegar to this one... horrible idea...)





~~~

Thoughts:




Ugh, the weather is so cold and gloomy.
Make it stop.



umm... Yah, I'm going to be adding veggie juice soon.
My energy is super low, and I think my bodies
finally hit the max with berries and greens.
It wants veggies and greens now.

I will obey.
Spinach and carrot juice it is...




~~~

"All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them. "



"The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing." ~Walt Disney




19.9.08

Day 50:

Sept. 19th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)


300 ml.
filtered water/red grapes



500 ml.
filtered water
1 banana
2 mangoes



700 ml. -
filtered water
1/2 bunch spinach
1 lemon cucumber(from my garden)
1 tsp. Barley Grass powder
1 heaping tsp. Vitamineral Greens
2 tsp. bee pollen
1 tsp. Manitoba Hemp Oil
1/2 very unripe banana
frozen raspberries


500 ml.-
Salsa/marinara live soup
(with cilantro)


~~~

Thoughts:

You have NO IDEA how BADLY I want to eat an avocado.
Omg.

That is what my "cleanse breaking" food is going to be...
Mango salsa with diced up Avocado.

Yum!


Also, I really really miss eating salads.
I'd like some Gazpacho and a Pesto toss Salad.
mmmmm mmmmm mmmmmm...


I won't be eating any soaked prunes (www.juicefeasting.org)
one: because I've only ever eaten them once.
two: I don't trust/understand dried fruit consumption.


So, I'll be getting some mango salsa tomorrow.
And breaking this with an avocado!

:D :D :D




I think this entire thing has really changed my taste buds...
I crave all of these foods I never have before. It's bizarre.


--- ----





If you take one piece of advice from this blog..
please, let it be this:

Addiction dissolves strength.



~~~


"Unless you are loving someone, nothing makes any sense" ~E.E.Cummings








18.9.08

Day 49:

Sept. 18th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)





1000 ml.-
cucumber juice/filtered water
3 handfuls mixed mesclun/herbs
carrot greens
(contains more nutrients than the carrots)
1/2 bunch spinach
2 tsp. bee pollen
2 tsp. wheatgrass powder
frozen berries
1 banana



500 ml. -
filtered water/red grapes




~~~

Thoughts:


I've actually been craving vegetables the past two days!!
:D


Kind of strange, but I like it...
craving things like carrots and zucchini.
The weather has been changing and getting gloomy again :(
So, I think my body wants me to knock
it off with the berries all ready. haha
(berries are FULL of antioxidants and B vitamins,
which is why I love them sooo... :) )


It's amazing how when you do this... or,
when you're raw vegan for a prolonged period of time,
your body automatically
starts craving produce that is local and in season.



So interesting.



~~~



"You begin saving the world by saving one person at a time;
all else is grandiose romanticism or politics.
" ~Charles Bukowski

17.9.08

Day 48:

Sept. 17th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)





Cold water with fresh lemon


1000 ml.-
cucumber juice
1 head red lettuce
3 leaves dino kale
1 tsp. bee pollen
2 heaping tsp. Vitamineral Greens
fresh strawberries
frozen blueberries
1 banana



900 ml.-
filtered water
4-5 big handfuls mesclun/herbs greens mix
1 tbsp. Giacomo Greens
frozen raspberies/blueberries
1/2 banana




500 ml.-
3 pears
2 bananas
(late night, the pears were AMAAAZING...yuuuummm..)





~~~

Thoughts:



Is it really extreme to try and be healthy in a toxic world?

No.
I don't believe it is.




I believe processed foods are extreme,
not abiding by Natural Law, not consuming the original
human diet.

I believe medication is extreme.
I believe, treating a symptom and not a cause is extreme.
I believe, surgery is extreme...
I believe acting like you ever really, truly,
know what you are talking about...
is dangerous thinking.

And I believe, not knowing yourself... is extreme;
and dangerous, in this world of masks.






~~~



"And by the way, everything in life is writable
about if you have the outgoing guts to do it,
and the imagination to improvise.
The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.
"

-

"I am too pure for you or anyone."

"Kiss me and you will see how important I am."




"Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are dangerously close to wanting nothing." ~Sylvia Plath



16.9.08

Day 47:

Sept. 16th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



Cold water with fresh lemon



1000 ml.-
cucumber juice
1 head romaine lettuce
1 handful broccoli sprouts
1 tsp. bee pollen
2 heaping tsp. Vitamineral Greens
2 tsp. Giacomo Greens
3 fresh strawberries(grown in my little garden :D)
frozen blueberries
1 banana



400 ml. -
apple/cucumber/lemon juice


~1000 ml. -
filtered water/raspberry juice
1/2 cucumber
dandelion greens
6 leaves dino kale
1 heaping tsp. Barley Grass powder
frozen blackberries/blueberries
1 banana




400 ml.-
Salsa/marinara blend
(basically salsa with some sun-dried tomatoes)









~~~

Thoughts:



You know sometimes, I feel like I am constantly watching
after a teenager. Taking care of an adolescent who
is addicted to everything and everyone.
Who needs to consume everything and everyone.


Granted it can be controlled... but she gets SO sucked into
everyday shit, that it consumes her. So she consumes.
And when I am around, I just drink my juice in the computer room.



Consume Consume Consume!!!!



When will it ever be enough??
When will anything ever be enough?!



My mother is good at breaking people down.
She knows herself well.
And she is SO strong, she is like a Titanic.
When she goes down...she will take everything with her.
The vast majority of sea life in the ocean will
perish because of her presence.



Ugh.
People do not understand it is their diet... their consumer
mentality, that is causing all of this.
The consumer mind is like a wild brush fire.
Completely and utterly, out of control. Never to be tamed.
Continually burning everything in it's path...



.

I feel very critical and judgmental today...so, I will
only say nice things, and be grateful for ALL OF THIS.

Damnit.






~~~




"If the Sun and Moon should ever doubt,
they'd immediately go out.
"



"If a thing loves, it is infinite." ~William Blake

15.9.08

Day 46:

Sept. 15th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



1000 ml.-
cucumber juice/filtered water
1/2 head romaine lettuce
5 leaves dino kale
1 tsp. wheatgrass powder
2 heaping tsp. Vitamineral Greens
lemon juice
fresh strawberries
frozen blueberries
1/2 banana


500 ml.-
Berry Berry good smoothie
(fresh pressed apple juice, banana, berries, spirulina)
@ Laughing Planet




500 ml.-
filtered water
2 mangos
2 bananas


300 ml. -
red grapes blended




~~~

Thoughts:



I think.. the moon was the best part of tonight....
Gorgeous.




~~~

Take me, I am the drug; take me, I am hallucinogenic.
~Salvador Dali

14.9.08

Day 45:

Sept. 14th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



900 ml.-
cucumber juice/filtered water
1 head romaine lettuce
1 handful mache'
1 tsp. Barley grass powder
2 tsp. Spirulina
5 fresh strawberries
frozen raspberries
1 banana
small piece ginger root


Water!


300 ml.-
Pineapple juice



900 ml.-
cucumber juice
dandelion greens
3 handfuls mache'/baby spinach mix
1 handful broccoli sprouts
(WAY more nutrients in them than broccoli itself)
2 tsp. Green Vibrance
lemon juice
frozen blueberries
1/2 banana



500 ml.-
Peach smoothie (3 peaches)





~~~

Thoughts:



Life. Is about more than simply what you are offered...






The most lasting form of change, is never forced change.
It needs to happen from within.





~~~

"How can I be useful, of what service can I be?
There is something inside me, what can it be?
"


"I dream my painting, and then I paint my dream."
~Vincent Van Gogh

13.9.08

Day 44:

Sept. 13th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



Cold water with fresh lemon



~1000 ml.-
apple/lemon cucumber juice
5 leaves dino kale
3 handfuls Micro Greens(sprouts)
1 tsp. bee pollen
1 tsp. Giacomo Greens
2 heaping tsp. Vitamineral Greens
frozen blueberries/raspberries
1 banana


300 ml-
blended red grapes


2 bowls of spicy salsa! :O
[nooooooo.. it's ok, I'm starting all juice tomorrow,
no more spicy crap for me! ;)]





~~~

Thoughts:




What I consider "raw food":

- fresh foods/produce
- frozen produce(frozen by me)
- produce dehydrated by the sun(not a dehydrator)



I do not.. necessarily, consider a lot of the
foods, general raw foodists consider 'raw', to be "raw".
If I am to say I am 100% raw vegan, that means all fresh food too me.
So, I describe myself as about 98% or so... I leave room for a healthy mindset.

This is about health.

Not elitist attitudes.
Not self-righteous beliefs.
Not unhealthy conditioned behavior.

This is about health.
This is about..


Live, and Let Live.





~~~


"It's no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society."
~J.Krishnamurti

12.9.08

Day 43:

Sept. 12th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



~900 ml.-
lemon cucumber juice
1 head romaine lettuce
2 handfuls mache'
1 tsp. bee pollen
1 heaping tsp. barley grass powder
2 heaping tsp. Giacomo Greens
frozen blueberries/raspberries
1/2 banana


@ Blossoming Lotus

~400 ml.-
Spicy Southwest live soup ;P
(tomatoes/cherry tomatoes/cilantro/chili pepper/avocado)

500 ml.-
cucumber/celery/parsley/kale juice



_________________________


500 ml.-
2 mangoes blended


_________________________

@ Kalga Kafe

1 young coconut! :D


>

500 ml.-
filtered water
1 mango
1 banana
2 peaches





~~~



Thoughts:




Sometimes, you know, I wonder if I know what I am doing. haha
I've been doing it for almost 5 years now... this time it's changing
and I'm starting to dig deeper.
It feels really good, to be finding myself; to be touching my soul.
Expanding my soul.




I don't think...in this life... many people do.
I think most people are composed of who they know,
and what they have experienced.

Not intuition or living passionately from the soul.
I think people are composed of who they think they are...
or who they are suppose to be.



~~~



"Forever is composed of nows." ~Emily Dickinson





11.9.08

Day 42:

Sept. 11th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



Cold water with fresh lemon



~1000 ml. -
lemon/cucumber juice/filtered water
3 handfuls mache'
2 handfuls Micro Greens (young grasses/sprouts basically..)
4 large leaves dino kale
2 heaping tsp. Vitamineral Greens
lemon juice
small piece ginger root
frozen blueberries
1 banana


400 ml. -
filtered water
2 mangoes
1 banana



500 ml. -
tomatoes/garlic/pepper/cilantro/celery





~~~

Thoughts:



I'm thinking that one of the reasons
I've been craving more sulfuric spicy things
lately is because it's getting colder.
At night, mainly, it's freezing outside.
And I think my body is just responding,
needing to heat itself up. (spices/garlic/cheyenne are
very Yang foods, and warm the system)
[spices also overexcite digestion and shock the system]



The fact that I consume nearly all Yin foods(fruits,
greens are viewed as neutral within Chinese philosophy)
is why my system gets alittle messed up during
the winter. It's also why a lot of raw foodists can't
maintain being raw, it's cold outside.
Your body wants to be warm.
(even though it's the spices in cooked food
that heat the body, not the cooked food itself.)

I remember reading an article about a year
or so ago, that spoke of the fact that you actually
end up colder when you eat all cooked food...
which is why you consume more foods, and more
acidic(to the body) foods in the winter time.



Your body wants balance.



Homeostasis



~~~


This is your ONE LIFE.
You get one chance in this body.
Live wisely.

I believe we should all be focusing
on preservation.
Via lifestyle, friendships, love, family.
When something is continually preserved...
it is continually sacred, it remains close to the heart.

And I believe, we should all..
Live with arms open, and growing to the
sound of our hearts beat.


<3


~~~



"Love is the great miracle cure. Loving ourselves
works miracles in our lives."
~Louise L. Hay

10.9.08

Day 41:

Sept. 10th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)




1000 ml. -
cucumber juice/filtered water
1 giant head romaine lettuce
1 handful mache'
lemon juice
1 tsp. bee pollen
2 heaping tsp. Giacomo Greens(spirulina & chlorella)
1 tsp. Barley Grass powder
frozen raspberries/blackberries
1 banana



300 ml. -
pineapple/orange/grape juice


500 ml.-
Mango salsa
mango/tomato/red pepper/garlic/cilantro
/red onion/himaylan salt

(why did you have to mention Gazpacho, Sarah?! haha)


2-3 liters water






~~~

Thoughts:


The most beautiful thing happened last night.

When I was walking around downtown later at night,
these three guys kept yelling things at me...
hitting on me, cat calls, etc. One of them came
over to me, the most attractive one.. he was very cute.
He was like.. "please don't listen to them..., whats your name?"
(as he took my hand), I told him 'Ande', and he introduced himself,
Jeremy. Then he said.. " you... are absolutely gorgeous. " ,
"really... just stunning".



I said "Thank you" and smiled very big. :D
He told me to have a wonderful night,
and I told him the same.



Wow.
Someone who knows how to compliment.
Beautiful.

Thank you for making my night, Jeremy.


:)



ALSO! My Gaia Feminization Theory is finally
bearing some statistical/scientific fruit!!
Read the latest Well Being Journal magazine for more insight...

But basically the same logic as natural selection...
always working in favor of the creator, The original.


We are growing. We are changing, biologically.
Mother Nature will see to it that we do not destroy her...
just sit back and watch the magick unfold.

Because, it's going to be beautiful.
>:)




If you'd like to here any of my theories in depth,
...all you have to do is ask.




~~~


"From the right to know and the duty to inquire
flows the obligation to act." ~Sandra Steingraber









9.9.08

Day 40:

Sept. 9th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)


Cold water with fresh lemon




~1000 ml. -
lemon cucumber/celery juice
6 leaves dino kale
2 handfuls mache'
1/4 tsp. Pure Vibrance powder (from www.rawreform.com)
2 heaping tsp. Vitamineral Greens
1 white peach (the tiny ones? )
frozen raspberries/blackberries
1/2 enormo banana


300 ml.-
cucumber/celery juice


2 tastes of Da5id's "Vegan Chocolate Pie"
for Sarah's b-day. :D
(it was whole foods with only 5 ingredients)



600 ml. -
tomato/cucumber/garlic/
pumpkin seed/cayenne pepper soup.







~~~

Thoughts:



Should I even continue counting days??
Hm... I think I will change it up soon.



Also, went for a long walk/run yesterday...
always exhilerating. I am AMAZED
at how much my body can endure.
I just ran and ran and ran.

My running training has taken a
backburner to this cleansing... well, as far as
long distance. I'll get there again... always time for 'training'.
:)



Always time for self-improvement.










~~~




"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in
a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
" ~Anais Nin






8.9.08

Day 39:

Sept. 8th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



1000 ml. -
cucumber juice/filtered water
1 (small) head romaine lettuce
3 leaves dino kale
1 big handful Micro Green Mix
(sprouts of: sunflowers, buckwheat, arugula, kohlrabi,
dill, chervil, radish, mizuna, & edible flowers)
2 heaping tsp. Giacomo Greens
1 tsp. bee pollen
frozen blueberries/blackberries
1 banana


500 ml. -
entire bag of red grapes
1 cucumber


500 ml. -
cucumber juice


500 ml. -
filtered water
2 peaches
1 banana



~~~


Thoughts:



I <3 edible flowers!!
They are one of my favorite foods.
I would like to start a little garden of herbs
and edible flowers sometime by next year...
Of course, it's going to have to be a "portable garden".
Since I move and travel a lot.


hmm...

Been kind of craving flax seeds lately... so,
I might start adding them. OH, also,
I've decided to not stop doing this.
Well..ok, I'll have salads, and other fruits every
once in awhile... But ingeneral I'm going to stick
with consuming about 80% blended foods/juice.
It feels right for me.

I knew this would happen eventually...
I'm sure I'll start falling more into the "liquidarian"
realm of things about half the year in a couple of years.
You kind of have to when you go raw...
get cleaner and cleaner with your consumption.
Otherwise you don't continue healing.
And healing, just like health & beauty;
are products of a full spectrum.
Not one or two characteristics, but a symbiosis of sorts.




Anyhow, I'm also not "making a big deal" about this...
because... it's not that different from what I normally consume.
And, I plan on doing the full 92 days of strictly juice this winter.

That will be AMAZING. Wow, this is just a taste.

Yummy ;)




~~~

"Follow that will and that way which
experience confirms to be your own."
~ Carl Jung




.

"The ego is not master in its own house." ~Sigmund Freud


"The goal of all life is death." ~Sigmond Freud

7.9.08

Our Emotional Bombs

Family.




I have been pondering familial love lately.
So many friends of mine... make
friendship like family.

Now, this is a beautiful frame of mind to be in.
Really... it is the only way to be.
But so often, these people seem to have a lot of
"family emotional baggage".
A lot of excess in the past, that has yet to be resolved.
That may never be resolved.


But... when they lose that family, what happens?
What happens then?




I feel as though... we are all like ticking time bombs.
We have not healed the family unit from which we came..
and so, so many constantly seek to fill that void with others.
They don't go to the source. They just create more problems...
by broken dating, broken hearts, broken lyrics and creation
that is beautifully beaming out from our souls.
Is dating the product of feeling lost?


Do people constantly seek others that know how to love,
because that is the void we are all, constantly,
desperately trying to fill?



I believe so.
I believe for anyone to have a healthy relationship with another...
they need to approach all problems, past & present,
with complete and utter compassion.
They need to have understanding to transcend.




We are all family.
But we don't need to throw our biological family away to realize this...

We are all family.

Day 38:

Sept. 7th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)


Cold water with fresh lemon




1000+ ml. ~
cucumber juice/filtered water
1 bunch spinach
2 tsp. bee pollen
1 tsp. Manitoba Harvest Hemp oil
1 tsp. Vitamineral Greens
2 tsp. Giacomo Greens
lime juice
fresh blackberries
frozen raspberries
1 banana


300 ml. -
filtered water
blueberries
1 banana


2 bowls of salsa with lemon cucumbers added.
(blended)



300 ml. -
Water from soaked dried cranberries




~~~

Thoughts:




Definitely feeling the aftermath of last night.
Ugh... being around smoking and drinking
does so many negative things to my system.
I really need to just go live in Patagonia, AZ.
for awhile @ Tree of Life.
Somewhere isolated, so I can just meditate
without car exhaust.


I wish I didn't physically respond to it so harshly.


...

Also, it continually blows my mind how
close-minded most people are. ESPECIALLY
people that claim to be open-minded.
I think it's sort of a fascinating little twist in irony...

Thank you Life.



...

hmmm... A lot going on in my mind right now.
Really very drained and exhausted of life.
Like I don't have much steam left.
Emotional or mental. hmmm...

But I feel good overall, just analyzing I suppose.





~~~


"Every man in his lifetime needs to thank his faults."
~Ralph Waldo Emerson



"And in spite of all the mastery we’ve attained,
we don’t have enough mastery to stop devastating the world –
or to repair the devastation we’ve already wrought." - (p.82)

"Perhaps the flaw in man is exactly this: that
he doesn’t know how he ought to live." - (p91)


"The world of the Takers is one vast prison,
and except for a handful of Leavers scattered
across the world, the entire human race is now inside that prison." - (p.254)


~ Daniel Quinn "Ishmael"

6.9.08

Day 37:

Sept. 6th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



Cold water with fresh lemon


900 ml. -
filtered water/apple juice!
5 handfuls baby spinach
2 tsp. Vitamineral Greens
2 tsp. Giacomo Greens
1 tsp. bee pollen
frozen blueberries
1 banana


500 ml. -
filtered water
1 mango
5 leaves dino kale


300 ml. -
Genesis Juice (local, raw)
Herbal Tonic Ginger


Genesis Website
controversy around the sale of raw juices




~300 ml. -
VOSS sparkling water with fresh lime



500 ml. -
filtered water
3 mangoes blended
1 banana



~~~

Thoughts:


I've been contemplating how women are
viewed in society a lot lately. As well as,
what it means to show gratitude.

Because I don't think a lot of people know.
How to show gratitude. I don't think
a lot of people understand...
that love is an ACTION. Love is an ACT.
Not something that is spoken.

.


I am very good at acting in gratitude.. I feel...
I'm very complimentary, I'm very warm,
I'm very nurturing and loving to those around me.
Because I know it matters.

I know that those beings that are simply a
product of this world... those that are falling apart...
are falling apart because no one is believing in them.
They are falling down because everyone is pushing them in
one direction via. glances, stares, actions and words.
Words are very powerful tools.





To think that I am "missing out" on something in life..
simply because I choose to act wisely, is a ridiculous assumption.
Sometimes... those of us that are single... are single for a reason.
Because my existence is about purpose. More purpose than
putting all of my energy into a relationship all of the time.


Sometimes I feel like people just constantly
chase other people around... without paying any attention
to themselves. To their own personal growth as an individual.
They'd rather "capture" something, than put any effort into growing themselves.


...





Stop consuming... start growing, my lovelies. ;)






~~~


"All life is an experiment.
The more experiments you make the better."


"Always do what you are afraid to do."


"A chief event of life is the day in which we
have encountered a mind that startled us."

--Ralph Waldo Emerson

Day 36:

Sept. 5th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



950 ml. -
cucumber/pear juice
6 leaves green chard
2 handfuls mache'
2 heaping tsp. Vitamineral Greens
1 tsp. bee pollen
frozen blueberries/raspberries
1 banana

(this smoothie was AMAZING)



400 ml. -
cucumber/pear/romaine lettuce blend



~1000 ml. -
filtered water
6 leaves curly kale
carrot greens
2 tsp. Vitamineral Greens
frozen raspberries
1 banana







~~~

Thoughts:


Had an amazing tarot card reading tonight.
Thank you worlds + to Jean Marie
for being such a blessing in my life.
She is such a profoundly beautiful creation.
<3 style="font-style: italic;">experience the present?
or a moment even?


Existing in the mind nebula is experiencing the present.
In so many ways.
Who is to say I am detaching from anything...
I am experiencing.





~~~

"A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the others crazy?" ~Albert Einstein

5.9.08

The Holographic Universe



This is SO COOL.
It will tell you everything, you already know.
;P

















The Human Energy Field













...

This is exactly what I am doing right now.
I am exercising my will.

I am burning through.

4.9.08

Evening Walk

Nothing can top the feeling of walking on railroad tracks,
in thick forest... along the river, at sunset.






:::





I found a pretty leaf.






-----
& an abandoned train car... >:]





.









Poured out about 200 photos today....
:)

Day 35:

Sept. 4th consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



1000 ml. -
cucumber juice (it has sulfur ;) )
1 head romaine lettuce
1 handful mache' corn salad :D
2 heaping tsp. Vitamineral Greens
1 heaping tsp. Giacomo Greens
frozen blueberries
1 banana




750 ml. -
filtered water
5 leaves dino kale
1 handful mache'
lime juice
1 heaping tsp. Spirulina
frozen raspberries
small piece ginger root
1 banana


2 bananas
1 peach blended



~~~

Thoughts:


Today.. I am showing gratitude. Nothing but love and gratitude
for every little thing in my little life...
For every experience.
For every dream.
For the ability to let everything go completely...

Thank you Mother, for bringing me into this world.
For laying the foundation... for teaching me all I needed to know,
to be who I am today.
And the ever evolving being I am ever becoming...


Indeed, living is about the journey NOT the destination.


~~ On Day 28:










~~~





"Believing in progress does not mean believing
that any progress has yet been made.
"


"By believing passionately in something that still does not exist,
we create it. The nonexistent is whatever we have not sufficiently desired.
"


"Evil is whatever distracts."


"I do not read advertisements. I would spend all of my time wanting things."


~Franz Kafka
<3!


Creative Output ::

Here is my advice, on harnessing your creative potential:


Thoughts for Creative Output:


#1: Control & filter your influences.
#2: Use your imagination... never put too much thought, into anything.
#3: Be creative not only with what you do, but with how you do it...
#4: Always remember, that You are your occupation.. in this life.
#5: Do not fall into the illusion of thinking that you need something
you do not already possess.
(that might be hard to swallow, but it is very true)











:)




Also, I think this should be all of our mottos.. and it
will definitely help get me thru this, and many other long
cleanses to come:


"An ounce of practice is worth more than tons of preaching."
~Ghandi









Day 34:

Sept. 3rd consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)


1100 ml. -
cucumber juice
1 head green lettuce
1 tsp. bee pollen
1 heaping tsp. Giacomo Greens
2 tsp. Vitamineral Greens
frozen raspberries/blueberries
1 banana


800 ml. -
filtered water
5 leaves green chard
2 handfuls baby romaine/spinach
2 heaping tsp. Giacomo Greens
1/2 pacific queen apple
frozen raspberries
1 banana


300 ml.
cucumber juice



Blended strawberries & blueberries ;D



water water water.


~~~


Thoughts:


I made a Pesto Squash & Tomato salad today.
It smelled really yummy. Of course, I made the pesto myself ;)



Still feel like I'm "detoxing" from spices now...
it's going to take me a few days being clean again to feel "back".
I feel very weird right now.
I feel like I look really weird too...hmm....






~~~

"Action expresses priorities." ~Mohandas Ghandi




3.9.08

Day 33:

Sept. 2nd consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



1000 ml. -
filtered water
2 handfuls mesclun
3/4 head romaine lettuce
1/2 cucumber
lime juice
2 heaping tsp. Vitamineral Greens
1 tsp. bee pollen
frozen blueberries/raspberries
1 banana


800 ml. -
cucumber juice
5 leaves dino kale
3 massive curly kale leaves
2 tsp. Giacomo Greens
frozen blueberries/raspberries
1 banana


Mango/peach blended.

300 ml. -
cucumber juice


300 ml. -
Last of the Gazpacho


~~~


Thoughts:


OMG! I felt hysterical today!!
What is going on?? hahaha

I've been laughing off and on, ALL DAY.
It's so bizarre. I feel utterly blissful.


Then I had the Gazpacho.. I swear, spices/garlic, etc. just do not sit well with me.
I'm glad I only did that once this last month, not again.
I realize my body needs the sulfur and sodium though.



...



I did juice an absolutely enormous cucumber ;)
that was enjoyable...



:D


*

I've been contemplating the Preservation of something...
of morality, a lot today. Like how it is in our natural state,
as human beings, to preserve the essence of something.
And not destroy it.
It is what comes naturally to us. Just like health.
The body naturally wants to be healthy and strong.
Is it truly the mind that erodes preservation?
The mind that destroys all that is sacred to us?

Because to me, when I observe nature and how Mother Earth,
functions as a whole. It is regenerative. It is preserving something.



________ _______


"Do not be too moral. You may cheat yourself out of much life.
Aim above morality. Be not simply good; be good for something."


"How could youths better learn to live than by at once trying the experiment of living? "


"As if you could kill time without injuring eternity. "

~Henry David Thoreau






2.9.08

Day 32:

Sept. 1st consumption:
(please bare in mind, ALL ingredients are organic)



500 ml. -
blended red grapes & romaine lettuce with water.


600 ml. -
Gazpacho

3 avocadoes blended with garlic!
:O



~~~


Thoughts:


OK. yah, no more Gazpacho. I know I overdid it. UGH.
Now I just feel like I'm starting over....


I don't feel like writing much right now.
The overconsumption of fats and spices has really messed with me...

ugh!

Spices/garlic/onions = EVIL.
I feel so sluggish and irritable. Not me.





~~~


"We learn from failure, not from success!" ~Bram Stroker, Dracula